Do you keep a journal? I did for years… through good times and right up until the point when I gave up my own voice.
I think journals are wonderful things. A repository for all the odd ball thoughts.. that I actually have followed up on. One night, I was writing in my journal by candlelight (pre kid days LOL) and it started a whole thing on what it felt like and what the light did and how people had been doing it for time unknown…. That eventually found itself in a story.
But then I just started writing pages and pages of I Hate You, and I knew it was time to quit for a while.
Now, I have a pretty pink leather bound journal. The inside pages are teeny tiny squares. a grid. It is not spiral bound, which is different for me, and I can tell you right now that I will not be writing on the backs of pages. Too risky— would hate to break the binding and loose all those beautiful words that I will fill it up with. It’s also awkward.
So why am I having such a hard time starting? It’s not fair! Everything is going too slow, and yet way too fast. I just can’t make sense of it all, and don’t know where to even begin.
But I’m a writer. And in order to tell fictional stories, I feel that I need to come completely honest with someone. Or something.
Even if it is a pink leather journal that has groovy paper but the wrong sort of binding.
So, am I the only one who prefers a specific type of binding on journals?
Oh crap. Who’s gonna hide it from my son? Can you imagine reading your mom’s journal? Actually, I think it might be cool to read my moms…. Would you want your children to read your personal journals?